Ever experienced that drowning feeling under water? The only thing you would recollect after catching breath is "constant fight to gasp air"! That reminds me I don't know how to swim till now, I was supposed to learn it as soon as I leave my job. Lazy me- I got to learn it next summer. Strikingly, I sometimes feel this suffocation when I haven't moved out of my house in a long time, not roamed around in it properly considering we have a small one; not taking bath for two days consecutively. It is difficult to evaluate if its isolation or solitude which leads to this disturbing emotion though. [May be it is absolute laziness ;)...as per my mum] However, when the sinking feeling gets onto you the instant reaction is to break-free. The feeling accomplished soon after it is of 'Re-birth'.
The utter distress experienced all this while may be harmful or even destructive in nature. At times, people tag it as 'depression'. It is so common with me, that I prefer to call it one of those "closed days". Unexpectedly, it might also bring the best in you. You might end up introspecting or taking initiative for a new beginning. The urge to unravel sometimes brings the best in you; you might discover your hidden talents and optimize them. I have recently started cooking. I knew how to cook before as well, but now I am trying to learn and re-learn how to cook things that I like. It is fun. Actually it is lot more than the usual household cooking.
At least that is what I want it to be.
I had prepared Suji Halwa. I liked it. Next I had prepared Bread rolls (with the stuffing of potatoes, peas, onion and some basic kitchen spices). With the left over mixture I tried cutlets, I believe they were not bad. Unfortunately, the most awaited recipe that I tried last evening didn't turn out well. I tried tempting Garlic pull-outs from a neighboring blog- Easy cooking. Honestly I was disheartened to see what I had prepared it was a disaster. Fortunately I got some assistance from Divya, who helped me understand what went wrong. Cooking I believe is just like a haircut, once done can't be undone. I have decided next time I will take pictures to make it more memorable for myself. (not the spoiled ones of course :P)
Hopefully, till I post next I will be ready with a successful attempt of a new recipe ;)